Here we are again, at full circle.

Baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept
You'd do anything for the one you love
Cause anytime that you needed me, I'd be there
Its like you were my favorite drug
The only problem was that you was using me
In a different way that I was using you
But now that I know that it's not meant to be
You gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to ya
Don't even recognize the ways you hurt me,
Do ya?

Tell me.

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads no where,
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there.
Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads nowhere

God help us.

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss him
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's Empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I've got a peice of paper
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying to hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timingIs beating our hearts
We're Empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's Empty

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts

We're Empty

The pieces don't fit anymore

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
'Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore

Well you pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I hide all the bruises, I hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
'Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

Well it's time to surrender
It's too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

Oh don't misunderstand how I feel
'Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
But still I don't know why
No I don't know why
I don't know why

Why I can't explain why it's not enough
I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

But it's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore

The pieces don't fit anymore

7 Ways he could loose me.

7 WAYS TO RUIN A RELATIONSHIP

1). Lie about the little things. This is a slow burning fuse. It won't have the effect of a massive deception, such as an affair, but will actually have a cumulative effect that is as destructive as sleeping around. She won't know you're lying. But you will. And then she'll catch you in one. Every lie is like a broken brick on the wall holding the bridge up. Take a few of them out, and you have yourself a Jenga game. Take a lot of them out, and you've got a collapsed bridge with all the 8am work traffic on it.

2). Don't apologize for your little screw-ups. This is good because it will slowly alienate you from her, creating an ever-widening rift of unresolved quibbles that soon require major surgery to suture back together. It's much easier and feels better to remain steadfast in your own rightness. You can even try and manipulate her through tone of voice or specific key phrases into feeling bad, even though you're the one who was an ass.

3). Want her only for what she can do for you. The classic selfishness approach to relationships will leave you satisfied and happy, but her feeling diminished as a person and a lover. Your needs should trump hers if you don't want the romance to last.

4). Substitute being with her with doing things for her. This is a subtle distinction, but one that creeps up on you when you get busy or just don't feel like spending time with her on the phone or shooting her a longer email. Whenever she asks you for a favor, you should have the best attitude and willingness to do it. This will make you feel less guilty later when you are "too busy" to talk or you have to fit her in. It won't be too long before she realizes you've given up actually caring about her and are only paying lip service to the relationship.

5). Stop being romantic. Don't send her gifts or packages. Procrastinate on that mixed CD. Don't send her text messages or emails throughout the day telling her you love her. Be passive when you're with her, let her make all the moves. Stop cuddling and holding hands when you are together.

6). Stop trying to understand her. In the beginning everything she did and said was cute and maybe mysterious. You wanted to know everything about her. Now that you want out, stop asking questions. Don't inquire into her day or deeper things about her life that you haven't discovered yet. Make the relationship surface-oriented, and you'll soon discover there's not much you have to do to quit completely.

7). Don't sacrifice for her. This is kind of a corollary to #3, since this goes back to your basic assumptions about the relationship. Since you're in it for you, sacrificing doesn't make sense, unless it might mean a greater reward for yourself down the line. Sacrifice is stupid if you don't truly believe in you as a couple.

Since no. 3-7 has already happened, maybe that's what he's trying to do.

I thought with him back by my side now, i'd be much happier and contented with everything. But, it just doesnt feel the same anymore. There's a really huge difference in the way he talks to me, the way he treats me etc. Our first meet up was really sweet. But recently, it really got me thinking whether or not he's taking me seriously or as Sam and Nicole said, he just wana get back at me cos i treated him badly before. Or he just wants me to hate him and breaking up wth him wont be a difficult thing for me and we can end this once and for all. I really dont know what he's thinking. He changed a hell lot. And i dont know if i can keep up with his changes, starting from his tongue piercing.

Its the little little things that makes me wonder if he's serious or not. Ireally feel like a complete fool now. And i'm back with the feeling of dangling and hanging in between. Its so hard trying to stay positve and all... I have no one to confide in cos i asked for it.

Cheryl, you knew it and you still went ahead and get yourself in deep shit again. Kudos to you.